The same old dream

i had another dream about you again. it seemed like everyone i know was at a theater and there was a play that was going to start. then you walk in with some girl i have never seen before. it accorded to me that you were on a date. i felt my whole world crash around me. i tryed to talk to you but you just ignored me. i think i had this dream because i was talking to some other guy. idk why but i still want you. i still wish that we could have been. i guess that i am still stuck in a dream.

Wow. t has been forever since i was last on there. Life has been a tragic few months. Death has been surrounding my life. I have been through a heel f a time to deal with it. but i cant seem to. i feel like at any momment that i am going to scream in someones face and tell them how i feel and let hem know how they make me feel.

i am seeing things differently now. i see peopel who i tought were my friends treat me like a pile of dog shit and how i always let them get away with it. but now i say fuck that shit. if you are going to shit on me ill shit right back on you mother fucker.

i am bitter i know but i think i deserve to be a little bitter foe once in my life.

Glass To The Arson

There has to be something that is keeping me so interested in this?
There has to be or else this is all pointless, and a waist of time.
And i hate waisting my time!
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Oh who am i kidding... I love waisting my TIME!

Just Keep Breathing.

All Of Them

He enters her life just as he leaves.
Fast and straight to the point.
He has no sympathy,
Because who has time for that.
He is charismatic.
Because that is what is expected of him.
He can carry a tune.
Make all the girls smile.
Lie,
Cheat,
steal.
He has done it all.
Just because he can.
He looks for his next victim.
Lets hope you are not on his list.

Again I Go Unnoticed

why do we concentrate so much on the past when the future is staring us down fight in the face? we know we don't live for ever but we choose not to live in the moment. we care to much about what other think that we for get to think about our selves. there is no more white and black only gray. because we forgot how to choose. and what i said is just going to go unnoticed even to me.

There's A Reason.

And I gave my hand to the Fates
And they took me around
They showed me the Seven Wonders
The sights and the sounds

There was a man with cinders for eyes
There was a girl with a dress made of flies
And there's a reason
There's a reason

And it's love that's tearing them down
And it's love that turns them around
Say it is so

And the ballroom is filled with the joy
Of making old friends
And jukebox girls trip the light
They wiggle and they bend

Blind Joe, he's feeling no pain
Sweet Georgia, she dreams of the rain
And there's a reason
There's a reason

And it's love that's tearing them down
And it's love that will turn them around
Say it is so

When the moon follows you where you go
And you cannot hide
And when voices of doom ring your ears
And horsemen do ride

May tomorrow the land be anew
May every bird sing unto you
That's the reason
That's the reason

That the love that's tearing you down
Is the love that will turn you around
That the love that's tearing you down
Is the love that will turn you around

Say it is so

I dont think there is a better song that explains what i feel at the moment.

Everybody Learns From Disaster.

Were sitting on a spinners while.
No options to get off.
No chances to stop.
We like the feeling of incomplete.
we Cherish the winters frost.
I give you all of me.
You give me the sand in your shoes.
I'm here to say FUCK YOUR SAND BITCH!

You can tell i mean it cause it is in caps.